Empty (new song)

I saw you standing in front of me,
I heard a whisper and I couldn't leave,
I saw everything again, the end,
I felt the hurt, the pain again.

I see the rain falling down,
As tears drop from my empty eyes,
I scream out your name,
But no voice leaves my lips,
Am I even alive anymore?

c/h I can't control myself anymore,
I keep on falling into the holes I've made,
I just wander around, with my wide empty eyes
Because of you, I'm empty

Your memories, they haunt me day and night,
I hear your name at every corner I go to,
I walk around feeling like a stranger,
And your the one to blame.

c/h

- written by Stephanie Fernandez on 19th May 2011 at 4.02pm. Copyright by Stephanie Fernandez :)

Kinda Freakin out

Yes, you heard right. Stephyy's freakin out. About SPM mainly. Its scary knowing I have my trials in September and then SPM in November. I need to prove to myself and everyone else that I can do it. It's harder than it seems though. Add Maths is a killer and I'll be happy with a credit. The rest are alright I guess, then again, you'll never know whats gonna happen. I really need to start studying but there's always a distraction. It's always been like that. However, I can't complain about anything. I gotta find a way around it.

Senior year, the end of my schooling time. (The what's going on post)

Hey people. Sorry, its been so long since I actually blogged. I've been so caught up in so many things. For starters, its my senior year. That means, more activities. And also prepping for SPM. Initially, I was happy that its all going to be over. But, my school had an education fair and thats when it hit me. I'm going to graduate in a few months time and its goodbye school, goodbye to my bed, goodbye to living with the parents. Its a little weird cause you'be become so accustom to doing that wake up 6, go to school for 8 hours, come home, tuition routine and all of a sudden its over and you can never repeat it. Oh well, life is all about new experiences so I'm excited.

My social life has been good. I'm making the most of it since its my last year here. I'm definitely going to miss my friends especially Veen, Risa and Janages. I'll blog about them in another post or else this one is gonna be long.:P Other than that, my broken heart is slowly healing. Its been a year since it all happen and I made it through. During that process, I met someone. Oh yes, again.

We met. we talked. and fell in love. Classic love story. I wasn't looking when he asked me. He's a younger than me so I just thought we'll be good friends. We texted almost everyday and slowly I began to like him, I didnt tell him though. Then, on Christmas day (how romantic :) I sent him a Christmas text, he texted back saying he likes me. I was in shock. But, he is an amazing guy and I love him. He loves me even though I'm so problematic. I get depressed and he makes me feel better. I can never be sad when I'm around him. It feels good to be in a relationship where its just two people in love. Just LOVE. Its been 5 months. Which is my longest relationship. Just seems so perfect.

My love life's good but my life aint. I'll blog about that some other time. I got Chemistry paper 1 tomorrow and I'm nervous. Till then, toodles!!

Heartless Friendship

Tears fell down your face
And I saw a different side of you
Gone was the girl with the smile on her face
Stood the girl with sadness in her eyes

Her heart was hurt
By someone who was heartless
Who didn't deserve her friendship
Who only came for fun

I stood by her side helpless
With words trying to comfort
But I know it wouldn't do justice
For my own heart knows how hers feel

Why would you hurt her like that?
When all she ever did was care
I hope you feel the guilt
As your soul crumbles into pieces

When It's Meant To Be

yay for another song!!

I'm not the type of girl who gets jealous
Your not the boy, who runs away with the wrong girl
I follow you around, telling stories as they days go by
As she creeps in your life so easily with lies

This is not what you wanted, I know you
I lost myself in your eyes, and saw how life should be

c/h
Now I'm saying lets runaway into a sunset
I'll meet you at the break of dawn
Don't say another word, just hear me out
I don't wanna waste another second
You gotta give in when it's meant to be

You, you don't wanna live a lie do you?
So take a step back and think about it for awhile
Do you really want to be on this page
Or start a new chapter with a piece that fits perfectly

c/h

Either way, I'll never let this go
So sing me a song, and I'll sing it back to you
Please don't go, when you know it's meant to be

Written by : Stephanie Fernandez
-30/11/2010 Copyright by me ;)

Being Me

Another song :) This song means a lot to me.

Compare the way I look to everyone around me
Don't know why everybody is falling for what they see
So I'm gonna walk down the street
Not caring whose wearing what
I don't need make up or noise
Cause what's inside is more than enough

c/h
I don't wanna be like her
cause she's too perfect, too perfect
And I don't wanna walk in her shoes
Cause she's not real, not real
I don't fit in, cause I'm real
I'm too colourful to be hidden
Being me is just as perfect

If skin and bones is the secret to all you happiness
Then keep doing what your doing
Cause the money ain't gonna last
So save yourself from the misery
Just come out of your shell
And be who you are
Cause I'm gonna live, I'm gonna smile and I'll fit in
I'm gonna run, I'm gonna strut and I'll knock you off

c/h

Just be yourself, it's more than enough
Your beautiful, don't get that wrong
Images are everywhere
But their fake, so don't compare
I don't wanna compare

We are different in every way
We're just as perfect
We love who we are
We're just as perfect
I don't fit in cause I'm real
I'm too colourful to be hidden
Being me is just as perfect

Written by : Stephanie Fernandez
-28/9/10- Copyright by me ;)

Who I Am

Hey peeps here's a new song i wrote.

I would give up everything to see you
cause I know you need me now
Your my heaven on earth
and the closes that I'd ever be to it
So I don't wanna leave this moment
And all I can breath is your life
so just be mine tonight

c/h

And I don't want anyone to see me
Cause I don't think they'll understand
When every heart is meant for someone
I just want you to know Who I Am

You can't fight this feeling that you have
All the memories, the truth and the lies
When everything feels so perfect
You bleed just to know your alive

C/h

I just want you to know who I am (x2)

Written by : Stephanie Fernandez
- 28/9/10- copyright belongs to me ;)

ATTENTION! ITS BIEBER FEVER!!!

Yea you read it right. Bieber Fever has officially hit Malaysia. As you all know by now. The hawty himself, Justin Bieber, is coming here to perform!!! Beliebers have been screaming their lungs out for his hair flips, can now have the chance to see it live!! (Let's hope his hair is still like when he comes here!!)

Justin is all set to perform at Stadium Merdeka on April 21st at 8.30 pm. (Which is Holy Thursday, fyi, which is why the concert couldnt be held on Friday cause its Good Friday) So, how did they hype this up? Tune Talk, The presenters of Justin Live In KL, had a two day event at Bangsar Village 2. On 15th Jan, Beliebers who were Tune Talk subs (if they weren't they could sub there) got to buy the tix 1st. And believe it, Malaysian Beliebers went insane. Showing up at 4am, just so they could dibs on the tix. The tix range from RM498, RM358, RM298, RM188 and RM98. Since its at Stadium Merdeka, deff everyone was eying the RM498 (vip) tix. It nearly sold out on the 1st day. On the 2nd day, the Beliebers who couldn't go to the event were left heart broken as they found out that the RM498 tix were SOLD OUT!! Yesh, you read right!!

I was one of them (But lucky me, I have other means of getting them front row seats!!haha). Not to offend anyone but it kinda seems a lil unfair for people outside KL. The least they could've done was to reserve some tix for the online booking. So we are left with the not so good tix :'( *sighs* But if its one thing Justin Bieber has thought me, is to say NEVER SAY NEVER!!. So cmon Beliebers, Lets all say NEVER SAY NEVER!! We'll still get a chance to see our Idol even if we're way back!! (Besides, the front row wouldn't get a chance of touching his hand as its all sitting ahah)

So, Let's just go and have fun. But here's me hoping that this doesn't happen in the near future!! :)

NEVER SAY NEVER!! And yesh, I have gotten Bieber Fever =.=