Why do I feel like everything's gone?

Well, It's been awhile since I've posted. Here I am. Nothing much has changed except I got my SPM results. I wasn't too happy about it but everyone else said it was good. Let's just say, I can't do medicine without re taking a few subjects. (Physics and Chem to be exact) I got C's for those 2. So, right now, I'm deciding bout what I want to do. Maybe SAM? It seems like the right thing to do for students who are still clueless about what to do. Or I could just forget bout medicine and do mass com. Whatever I decide, I'll have my whole life to deal with. NO PRESSURE. Do you ever feel empty sometimes? Like something's missing? That is how I'm feeling now. I've never really spoken bout it but yea, I am now. A whole new chapter of my life is starting and I'm supposed to be all giddy about it but I just feel like it's nothing. My best friends are in Form 5 so I hardly see them. (I miss them) :) My other friends are mostly in colleges. Some overseas. Vanessa's having her Form 3 exams. I feel alone. As for boys. I'm OVER my ex. In fact, I think kicking him in the nuts would make me feel so more better. I can't blame him for the results I got, but it kinda messed me up a bit. If I didn't say yes, maybe I would've gotten better results. Who knows? I feel like I wasted 8 months but right now, past is past. "The angel will die, covered in white" xoxo, Stephyy