Beautiful story..
Hellow everyone. so i had free time on my hands so wht did i do? i bought the book "Dear John" n i fell in love with it. I cnt say i didnt cry. I cried alot while reading it..
Its basically bout this guy, John who had a rough childhood. His dad nvr really gave him enough attention so he became a rebel. He joins the army n thinking tht he has no one to care bout expect for his dad. He doesnt care at all bout wht people think. Every year during summer he gets a 2 weeks break. He was going on until tht one day tht changed his entire life. After surfing, he was chilling. He saw some college students talking. Suddenly, this gurl's bag falls into the water. Without even thinking, he dives into the water n grabs the water. The gurl, Savannah thanks him n invites him for dinner. He follows. soon they discover they are in love with each other. "it only took two weeks for me to fall in love with you" she said. They seem perfect for each other. But John has to return to Germany (hes based there) so they write letters to each other. And everytime thres a full moon, they both stare it. since the day the confessed their love, there was a full moon outside. tht part brought tears to my eyes since their love seemed so strong. They got thru 2 years. until 9/11 came. John decided tht he wanted to continue in the army since he felt thts the right thing to do. Savannah respected his decision, but behind him she fell in love with her best friend, Tim. John didnt know bout this until he received a letter from her. just with tht piece of paper 2 lives were changed. I couldnt help but to cry so much when i read it. n whenever i think about it i still do. John let her go. He comes bck to his hometown when his dad passed away. Now he doesnt have anyone for him. After the funeral, he has no whre to go. so he goes to Savannah house n he discovered tht she's MARRIED. (another part whre i cried) she married Tim (n he has cancer, nice pick) Tim tells John tht Savannah still loves him. and tht if anything happens to him, John should always love her. Eventhough John has Tim's blessing n Savannah doesnt want him to go, he still does. he doesnt want to ruin their marriage. He loved her so much tht he gave her up. n again i cried. but evry night, when thres a full moon, both of them still stare at the moon thinking of all the memories...
so thts the story. y did i cry? it cause i knew exactly how John felt. I just dun get how people when their so in love can lose interest in tht someone. It just doesnt make sense. n giving up on ur soulmate, it worst then death. (maybe a little exaggerating srry) i did tht. i know how it feels. But most of all after reading tht book, i realized my love for N was fake, i nvr loved him. It was J tht i love, n believed tht i belong with him. N was just to recover myself. But after tht was gone. Im left to battle myself. Seing him, holding someone else, kissing her, saying he loves her.. when all tht suppose to be with me. That should be ME. i let him go, knowing tht he would smile n tht would be enough for me to live. Our friendship should be enough. Its not. i break down alot more then i used to. He told me he still loves me. n i'll hold on to tht.
If i could i have one wish, i would wish for one kiss with him. It would be enough to prove to myself, tht he should be with me. it not impossible. for tht to happen. i will do whtever it takes to make tht come true. to bring us together. i know forever is with him.. cause i've nvr mey anyone lyk him, anymore who's personality was just me. he knw all my secrets. n i love him. forever. n im not backing down from tht <3
i love you, J 16 feb 10. i'll cherish tht day forever
B.o.B Ft Hayley Williams ~ airplanes
Paramore ~ the only expection.
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